{"id":47196,"date":"2019-06-08T14:19:13","date_gmt":"2019-06-08T11:19:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/gzone.com.tr\/?p=47196"},"modified":"2019-06-13T14:42:32","modified_gmt":"2019-06-13T11:42:32","slug":"tugba-badal-yazdi-seytan-isidir-aldatmak","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/2019\/06\/08\/tugba-badal-yazdi-seytan-isidir-aldatmak\/","title":{"rendered":"TU\u011eBA BADAL YAZDI: \u015eEYTAN \u0130\u015e\u0130D\u0130R ALDATMAK"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Hayallerimizde pembe panjurlu evlerimizin begonvil kokulu balkonlar\u0131nda a\u015fkla ya\u015flan\u0131yoruz\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hayal bu ya, kimi de toplay\u0131p p\u0131l\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 sahil kasabalar\u0131na g\u00f6\u00e7 ediyor. Ama \u015fehir hi\u00e7 yok! \u015eehir isimleri yok o hayallerin i\u00e7inde.&nbsp; K\u00f6y var, kasaba var, e\u015f var, dost var ama \u015fehir yok! \u015eehirler hapsetti her \u015feyimizi! Metropol s\u00f6yletti ilk yalan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131\u2026 Kand\u0131rd\u0131 ilk sevdi\u011fimizi \u00fcnl\u00fc harflerinden!&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130nsan, yan\u0131l\u0131yor. \u0130nsan, aldat\u0131yor. Yalan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor, yalan\u0131 da seviyor zamanla aldatmay\u0131 sevdi\u011fi gibi, aldatmay\u0131 affetti\u011fi gibi. Ve biz \u00e7ok ac\u0131yoruz, ac\u0131d\u0131k\u00e7a \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131yoruz. Karabasan gibi \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcyoruz s\u0131radakinin hayat\u0131na. Sonras\u0131, sonras\u0131 yok. Etekleri zil \u00e7alan, eteklerinden bahar damlayan d\u00fc\u015flerimizi k\u0131\u015fa \u00e7evirenlerin yan\u0131ndan \u201colsun be!\u201d diye g\u00f6\u00e7 ediyoruz \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fczdeki aylara. Oysa nas\u0131l yan\u0131yoruz! Il\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k kan\u0131yoruz a\u00e7\u0131k kalan neremiz varsa. Hi\u00e7 yalan s\u00f6yleme! Sen de aldat\u0131yorsun, ben de. Ve bunu b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ars\u0131zl\u0131kla yap\u0131yoruz. Sorsan, hepimiz ayn\u0131 dertten geliyoruz ama m\u00fcthi\u015f aldat\u0131yoruz. Sever gibi yap\u0131yoruz bazen, bazen de orgazm taklidi yap\u0131yoruz. \u0130\u00e7imizde bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na ait duygularla hi\u00e7 utanmadan sar\u0131l\u0131yoruz kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdakine. Yeter ki bitsin diyoruz bu i\u00e7ten gelen ve yine i\u00e7e batan ac\u0131. Ac\u0131m\u0131zdan s\u0131yr\u0131lmak i\u00e7in m\u0131\u015f gibi yap\u0131yoruz hayata ve sen hala aldatmay\u0131 biriyle sevi\u015fmek san\u0131yorsun. M\u0131\u015f gibi yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n neresi varsa hayat\u0131nda, en g\u00fczel sen aldat\u0131yorsun. Kendini aldatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131ktan sonra bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na \u00e7uvald\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 bat\u0131rmaktan \u00e7ekinmiyorsun bile. Aldatmamak i\u00e7in kimsenin kan\u0131na girmiyor, ili\u015fkiyi reddediyor, a\u015fka zaman\u0131m yok diyoruz \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc huyumuzu biliyoruz. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ci\u011ferimizi tan\u0131yoruz. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yaln\u0131zl\u0131k olmas\u0131 tam da bu nedenle i\u015fte. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevmeyi tercih etti\u011fimiz g\u00fcn ba\u015flad\u0131 bizim cehennemimiz. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015feytan i\u015fidir aldatmak. Ve bunu bir defa yapt\u0131n m\u0131, bir g\u00fcn kendinin de aldat\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 paranoyas\u0131yla ya\u015famaya ba\u015flars\u0131n. Gelecek sanki ge\u00e7mi\u015f gibi olur. \u0130ll\u00fczyonunla ger\u00e7e\u011fi ay\u0131rt edememeye ba\u015flars\u0131n. Yan\u0131lmalarla, aldatmalarla ge\u00e7ecek bir hayat\u0131n s\u00f6zle\u015fmesini o g\u00fcn yapars\u0131n.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/thoughtcatalog.files.wordpress.com\/2016\/02\/shutterstock_347906387.jpg\" alt=\"\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eark\u0131lar vard\u0131 hani.&nbsp; \u201c\u00c7ok \u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm istemeden seni d\u00fcn gece aldatt\u0131m!\u201d diyordu biri. \u201cD\u00fcn gece hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir erke\u011fe s\u0131rf sana benziyor diye\u201d devam ediyordu bir di\u011feri de\u2026 Hi\u00e7 olmad\u0131k duygular\u0131n pe\u015finde, aldat\u0131yorduk birbirimizi. Aldan\u0131yorduk zamana. Kimi \u00e7ok sevdi\u011finden, kimi de \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden vaktin zaman\u0131nda\u2026 Bahaneler k\u0131\u00e7 gibiydi ve herkeste bir tane vard\u0131 mutlaka.&nbsp; \u0130ntikam\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131yorduk ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her nefesin. Hep bir \u00fcz\u00fcleni oluyordu hikayemizin. Mutlu biten a\u015fklara tan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yalanc\u0131 \u015fahitli\u011fe d\u00fc\u015feli \u00e7ok oldu.&nbsp; \u0130yi halden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z indirimler sezon sonu fiyatlar\u0131ndan sat\u0131ld\u0131. Pis olduk. Pislik olduk.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Mesela sen, giderken en g\u00fcvendi\u011fin yan\u0131ndan, sustun mu ac\u0131mas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na? \u201cBen olmal\u0131yd\u0131m onun yerinde!\u201d dedin mi? Kime g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc bile bile, y\u00fczd\u00fcn m\u00fc mavi denizlerin ne\u015feli yunuslar\u0131 gibi? O \u015fimdi, senin \u00f6zlemiyle intihar etti\u011fin t\u00fcm duygular\u0131 ba\u015fkas\u0131yla ya\u015f\u0131yor! Ya\u015f\u0131yor musun sen de? \u00d6lmedin mi hala? Mutluluklar diledin mi kendi cenazene?&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bu b\u00f6yle nereye kadar? G\u00fcvenemeyecek miyiz biz kimseye? Son g\u00f6r\u00fclmesine bakmadan mesajlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, stalklamadan yedi s\u00fclalesini, falc\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6yledi\u011fi bir iki harften y\u00fcr\u00fcyemeyecek miyiz hayallerimizin \u00fczerine?&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u015eeytan i\u015fidir aldatmak. Ve bunu bir defa yapt\u0131n m\u0131, bir g\u00fcn kendinin de aldat\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 paranoyas\u0131yla ya\u015famaya ba\u015flars\u0131n. Gelecek sanki ge\u00e7mi\u015f gibi olur. \u0130ll\u00fczyonunla ger\u00e7e\u011fi ay\u0131rt edememeye ba\u015flars\u0131n. Yan\u0131lmalarla, aldatmalarla ge\u00e7ecek bir hayat\u0131n s\u00f6zle\u015fmesini o g\u00fcn yapars\u0131n. Hadi ge\u00e7mi\u015f olsun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed-instagram wp-block-embed is-type-rich is-provider-instagram\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\nhttps:\/\/www.instagram.com\/p\/BwPJ0A7h7jK\/\n<\/div><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hayallerimizde pembe panjurlu evlerimizin begonvil kokulu balkonlar\u0131nda a\u015fkla ya\u015flan\u0131yoruz\u2026 Hayal bu ya, kimi de toplay\u0131p p\u0131l\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 p\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 sahil kasabalar\u0131na g\u00f6\u00e7 ediyor. Ama \u015fehir hi\u00e7 yok! \u015eehir isimleri yok o hayallerin i\u00e7inde.&nbsp; K\u00f6y var, kasaba var, e\u015f var, dost var ama \u015fehir yok! \u015eehirler hapsetti her \u015feyimizi! Metropol s\u00f6yletti ilk yalan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131\u2026 Kand\u0131rd\u0131 ilk sevdi\u011fimizi \u00fcnl\u00fc harflerinden!&nbsp; &hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":47198,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1777,83,7526,3804,7527],"tags":[7513],"class_list":["post-47196","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","","category-bu-ay-gzone-dergide","category-cinsellik","category-haziran-temmuz-2019","category-kose-yazilari","category-tugba-badal","tag-tugba-badal"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47196","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=47196"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47196\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47290,"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47196\/revisions\/47290"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/47198"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=47196"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=47196"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.gzone.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=47196"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}